Monday, March 29, 2010

~~~♥♥♥ To a precious friend ~~~♥♥♥

Yesterday night,I know the phone ringing..
And at that moment,I was inside a car,with 2 of my friends,finding room arround setapak area.
Yea,it is quite midnight..

Not to lie and I said that,I am a little happy,I could feel some hope is towards me,maybe now you will explain to me,everything I though was wrong,actually all I think is WRONG WRONG WRONG.
But,I dare not to answer the phone.

不懂曾几何时,我变得如此的感性,就连我自己,都觉得自己生病了!~
我的情绪仿佛成了绳子,紧紧的捆绑我想对你的原谅,也绑住了那颗想听你解释的心,
应该说我很明白为什么我会那样子~我真得很明白我自己~
我今天能交心和你做朋友,应该就是一个单位计算我们的关系,
你有困难我一定会帮,当然如果别人想要说你的坏话,我一定会维护,
因为,打从心里我就想说我们是好朋友,莫名的我有很多好朋友,
当然也时常会被人家劝得小心,不然就被骗了,我一向固执,都不听人家劝~

昨天,我懂了我全部的朋友都不会出席,包括:evyonne,chiew-may&jia en
我也懂我即将会是一个人,但是,老师真的希望我去,我一定会去,毕竟,
就连下一次见他是几时,我也不晓得~
当然,那样的情况下,我一定会带alex陪我~
我很明白到,当天你是不可能陪我,就算你会,我也不会要的,因为,我懂你已经有一个和你像双胞胎的朋友会出席。
这是我们一做朋友以来的第一个承诺,我不会干涩你的和他的生活,逼近全部人有自己交朋友的权利,我也不会去胡思乱想你会和我一同坐下来谈天,但是,我觉得,基本上都应该来聊几句话吧~毕竟从我们便好朋友以来,我们都有很多话说的~

而,你在半路时,我已经打电话给你了~你也有接,然我觉得等下你一定会来,
就有一种莫名的期待你来~

到了你进门口的那一刻,我还和Alex说,他来了~
然而,Alex应该是认不出你,或则已经忘记了你是谁吧~
他就说谁啊?
我就说,喂,他今天穿到很美一下了!
我并且和小惠解释说,我和她没有好像以前那样不好了,我和她好回了~

你明白那种我对你的期望吗?你能感受吗?

然而,你走过来的时候,我根本没有犹豫过要不要去跟你说话,
我根本就觉得和你说话是一种应该做的事情,我也不会去在意别人的眼光~
我就去叫你了,你给我的,只是一个淡淡的微笑就离开了~

Alex,应该算是一个不厉害说别人的是非的人吧~
他终是比较慢半拍,然而,他这次的反应可快的呢~
他立即说:他好LAN C哦~

虽然心里很难受的我,依然为你解释说:有啊~他有笑啊~
他就说:拜托,他称得上哪一种笑容?虚伪的笑?

我就没有再为你说话了,原因是,我心里也受了一定的伤害~

alex的每一句话都让我觉得很不开心~如果今天,他说的是你那个朋友的坏话,
我觉得我根本不会有感觉,或者是一起赞同,然而也因为你的位子在我心里改变了,
所以我的感觉也不是会赞同,而是会难过了~

不久后,我就走了~

在车上,我一直都没有出声,我一直觉得我的真心不应该是得到那样子的回应~
再不久,我问ALEX,你真的不懂那个女孩是谁吗?
他说不懂~我不断的解释我们曾去过的地方,才让他想起~
他就说,怎么他会那样呢?POKER FACE,算啦,不要伤心~

我宁可他告诉我说这是个误会~你不是那样的~
我有一百个为什么~我的情绪很复杂~或许是我不想去承认我相信你是一个错误的选择~
我也不想去承认,你是那样的~
我打了给chiewMay,眼泪都就来掉了,我也不懂,是因为生气,还是失望,还是伤心~
我真的想喊一声: FUCK !!!!!!!!

然后,就去了Alex的家把情绪舒解在部落~
在然后~
就和Alex的妈妈去走街,一阵天,都是这个问题困扰着我,
到最后,
我和我自己说,算了~要乖嘛!不要想了~

曾经的我们,是多么的好,
虽然不是我们彼此心里面的最好,
但是也不算差,可以说是非常好吧~
都可称为无话不说,但是,应该都只能是回忆了~

当然,我不会去说你的坏话,以后也不会说你的秘密出来,
也不会去害你,那不是我的作风,只是,我会得空想回我们的回忆~^^

Sunday, March 28, 2010

heart-broken-day

I totally can feel my sadness and disappointment right now.
Tears is gonna drop and feeling can't lie.
I thought that we are really best friend.
I thought that the meaning of bestn friend is sharing secrets together,outing together and helping each others.
I thought we had been go through this.
But in the end is just I am to easy to be cheat,to easy to pass my heart to someone and they are too easy to cut my heart to pieces.

I trust that the one who gave people the real love only will get the hurt.
And I am sure that I give you my heart as a best friend.
That's the reason why I am unhappy right now.

Yea,as I said always feeling couldn't lie.
I didn't blame on you,cause there is no point on put a blame on you.
Yet I have no regret for requesting a chance for us to be best friend.

I need to be tough.
I couldn't cry.
I will smile and wish you goodbye.
Will pull off your position in my heart.
Smile and walk away.

I was hoping we can be the ever best friend previously.
But now it was just a crap for me..
Thanks for the memories that we spent.
Having dinner at '' tan cha ook'' . Have a walk in night market together,
having baskin robin chocolate steamboat,having talks in riverside,
and spent our very last moment together in my room chilling and funny talks.

=)

Saturday, March 27, 2010

mWahs ~~~♥♥♥

Mum and dad were having out-station.
Of course hubbie needa bring me out for eat.
If not I'll be straving la wei .. XD

Allright,I planned to see my future room but too bad I couldn't get the person who needa show me the room.
Therefore,after our branch,we stick our ass to KLCC.

Yea,April's birthday is just arround the corner,
and of course we are all headaching bout the present.
But previously I had brought her to SASA for choosing the perfume.
And after smelling this and that fragrance , she decide to choose either ANNA-SUI Christmas ROCK ME collection nor GUCCI FLORA .
Since that I had the ROCK ME collection,so she choose the GUCCI,
YEA ! I hope we can share in the future as she wish too.
WE POOR MA =/ CAN'T AFFORD 2 MA,SO SHARE SHARE LO =O

uhm.and today I bought it from KLCC.
It was so nice and a shower gel tag along too.
maybe gucci's company also wish APRIL happy birthday so give her a shower gel ?
hahahaha ! and I LOVE THE WRAPPING SO MUCH.
~~~♥♥♥

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And I'll not forget to pamper myself.
My new TEES collection.
French connection which is FCUK collection.
NO FUCKING WORRIES =)
I'll wear on April's birthday perhaps.
AND.
THE DAY WILL BE CELEBRATE IN ''FULL-HOUSE''if there is no any changes.
mwahs ~~~♥♥♥

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Our share for April's present:
Thanks for the sponsorship by ::
Amanda
Cyrus Seng
Eyvonne Siau
Mico
Teh Lu Yi~~~♥♥♥ me ! ^^

Thursday, March 25, 2010

矛盾~

很多时候,都以为自己很了解爱情,毕竟,都交往过了几个男生,
也算是懂什么叫爱情吧~
但是,我却遇到了一个难题,我渐渐地发现,爱情,在我心里的价值观,不断地改变~

在初恋的时候,爱情仿佛是我的生命,就觉得和这个男生一定可以到一辈子的~
到了第二个的时候,却觉得他自己一个让我忘记初恋的代替品~
到了第三个,却觉得自己没有良心的把别人当代替品是错的,所以得认真,但是却被伤害~
一直不断不断的变化~
直到现在~找到了一个很爱我的,很迁就我的,什么都很疼我的,但是,却看不到我们的未来~

怎么说呢?Uhmm...
先拿cyrus来说吧~从来我和人交往,他都说我遇到的人终是欠缺好的~
但是,他却认同了这个,他也看到他的好,当然我也认为我真的很难再找到一个那么好的男生了,我发脾气,他哄我,我怎样任性都好,他不曾骂我,或许连大声都会很少发生,每一样东西,都有很多角度的去观察,有人会说他很疼我,有人会说他很笨就连被欺负都不会说,有人会说他根本不在意我发脾气,当然也有人会说好心那样的女朋友丢掉算了~


我很明白为什么我每一次的发脾气,我想说的是,我想说的是,有时候,就连我无理取闹,我也懂我为什么在无理取闹~或许,有时候被宠坏的我也想看看你发脾气,就在想,你到底每一次的沉默,是因为你真的是在让我还是你连你自己是对的,我在无理取闹你都不知道?

我很难去形容我的心情,我虽然是在谈恋爱,但是,有时候我却会喊出:我也好想谈恋爱~

很多人会傻眼,明明我就在恋爱啦~为什么还会吵,当然,我懂我自己在想什么~

情侣,应该是每天拿着电话来按的丫,应该会常常叫一叫-爱人,宝贝,我还想你哦~
但是,这些的一切,我好久都没有了,有时候,可能因为觉得自己没有而会偶尔的去发一下这种信息来制造一些甜蜜,但是,却得不到回应的,很多时候,他会觉得这些信息是不用回的吧~

有时,煮了一碗面给他,他却会注重电视机的情节,而忘记了说谢谢,重心也不曾在那碗面,只是在男女主角身上,有时,却得很现实的去接受,爱情不是两个人的事情,而是两家人的事情,或许,好的东西都不曾听他妈妈称赞过我,听的都是那些不好的,不然就听他怎样在他妈妈面前保护我,真的很想问一句,我真的有差到需要你的保护吗?有时候,妈妈却和我说,你要那样的照顾你男朋友照顾到几时?我好像忘记了我也需要照顾~

有一点累,累到觉得自己已经不爱了~
想出去,都比较想和朋友出去~
想放手,却不想面对那种不舍得的感觉,
没有把握下次是否还能够找到一个那么疼我的,
但是却不断的质疑是否那样就是我得继续交往的理由?
到最后再想想其实每一个人都有他的好与坏,不必那么计较,
但是那样的我们真的能走远吗?难道我现在交往是玩玩的吗?

很多时候,我都希望他能改,
或许是把我变笨一点,然他聪明一点我都愿意~

很多的心声然我压抑自己压抑的好痛苦~

有人懂吗!

Monday, March 22, 2010

♥ StubbornPrincess-bubu's Birthday - Angel & Devil nIghts ~~~♥♥♥

Obviously I am now here to blog about my 18th Birthday.
Once in your life time you will turns 18.
And I am someone without any organising own bbq party experience,but I am still shouting that : I WANT ORGANISE A PARTY.

I need to thanks many of VIP in my life.
Especially my mum,I get a very suck result in my SPM but still,she willing to cook for me.
Thanks,and many of them help me lot.
VIP,CheeWeng godbrother,OMG,he paid 1k,and he help me do many stuff,even he is the major part who in-charge in BBQ,I willing to help if I am not with dress and heavy make up and the blink finger-nail . I owe you a big one ok? I will try my best to help you next time.This is what I swear.

The next VIP-Cyrus SengChenWai, he in charge in all decorating of my small living room,and he draw my face,my nail and perm my hair.
Thanks baby. LOVE LOVE LOVE =D

And of course never the less some of them , Eyvonne, Amanda, Kevin =D Thanks =D
and also photographer - Elton =D

The princess of the day ::

DENG DENG, PARTY START ::

The big gift I received on my birthday :: Burberry's Valentine's collection =D

Peiying :: She gave me lots of candy and chocolates... I liked it so muchie. Now I'm as sweet as candy =D Mwahs =D but too bad she was just come for a few moment =( nevermind. We get our next outing in future yea =D

Vincent :: He gave me a necklace,but too bad,I have sensitive skin =( But still appreciate it =D

FAMILY:
LUYI,MUMMY,DADDY,XINYEE


AMICAL ELAINE,LUYI,YIWEN


HUIHUI,LUYI,MUNMUN

LUYI,ZHU XIANG.

LUYI,KEVIN

LUYI,CYRUS

LUYI,KINKY

LUYI,APRIL

LUYI,MICO

GIRLGIRL,LUYI

SHIN CHEN,LUYI

Start eating ::~~~♥♥♥

A surprise from him ~~~♥♥♥
The 90 roses. HaPPy BirThdaY~~~♥♥♥

The devil and the angel ~~~♥♥♥

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I JUST LOVE THESE PICTURE SO MUCH..
CAUSE WE ARE GOOD ONE WHO FOLLOW THE THEME ~~~♥♥♥

Relatives ~~~♥♥♥

Brother's friends ~~~♥♥♥

Girls having their own fun ~~~♥♥♥

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Preparing for the next session ~~~♥♥♥

~~~♥♥♥ I though I can bring this to shopping ?
But too bad they had cut it into pieces ~~~♥♥♥

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Open my presents... Owhhhh ~~~♥♥♥

~~~♥♥♥ I received the most precious present :: Burberry's Handbag + Burberry's Cake from them ( CheeWeng,Cyrus,Kinky,Amanda,MeiYen,April,KevinKoh,HuiHui,AhGirl,Eyvonne,JiaEn)

~~~♥♥ 90 roses from my Hubbie

~~~♥♥ PohKong Earring from Family members.

~~~♥♥♥ BodyShop Products from WenMin, NinaRici perfume from Edwin Teh , Tons of Candy from PeiYing, White Angel Tees from ChinEng , CR2 Handbag from Brother's friend, A black handbag from YiWen and Elaine, AngPao from Relatives and ShinChen,Necklace from Vincent.

Anyways,I am very unsatisfied with some of them absent , needa give them a whack on their ass. HMPH . And also feel a bit disappointed on those who not follow the theme,maybe you feel you are okay on not following but you will not know the feeling for the people who are following. That's it.

I am happy on my birthday .. But I know I won't get to organise it again on my 19th and 20th. But I'll consider it again when I turns 21st. Mwahs .