Saturday, May 28, 2011

X.X~~~♥♥♥

Am staying outside 5days a week,
staying at home 2days a week..

It is hard for me to decide where and which is better for me.
But,
I like the way for being like this.

I like to hide from people when I am stress.
Somehow,I can go shopping alone.
Is kinda weirdo but it's really a way for me to release my stress.

It is quite fun to walk along the street alone.
Seeing people walk pass you by and facing people who you don't know.
At least they don't know you,is always better than people who know you!
If they don't know me,I can always be real,rather than facing people who are so fake.
If there are people who know you,you couldn't hide like I cannot say that HE IS MY BOYFRIEND IN FRONT OF MY FAMILY.
Is a torture.Even dare not to answer calls when he called me.
But I can shout loudly to people who I don't know,even pointing my finger to my love one and shout! I LOVE YOU !
but if I did the same thing at home,there will be lots and lots problem happen.
AS DAD AND MUM COME FIRST:: YOU KNOW,WE DON'T LIKE HIM.
THEN COME OUT A BURATHHER ..
should say that it is a friction for me and my family!

But I didn't blame.
cause you don't know him well.
at least.he is not the shadow in your mind! =)

well.
hope bad luck get far away from me!
I need some good lucks =)




Friday, May 27, 2011

没有主题的部落...

很累很累,最近不是很累就是咳嗽伤风...

心里面还是很不舒服..
总很在意那件事情...
或许我很天真,一直在想一个没有办法解决的问题...
或许,我也已经放弃了解决那个问题的决心...
因为我也明白那个问题是没人能解决..
只是,把以前的尊敬换成了讨厌。
我....真的很不喜欢你,很不赞同你,
难听一点,觉得你这个老人家很幼稚..
因为你的幼稚,因为你的固执,害死的是你自己的儿子..

谢天谢地,你很乖。
加油! =)

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

哭了...

哭了?
是我吗?哈哈,也有吧,其实是他先哭的。
男人也是会有掉眼泪的时候,
别担心,我不会笑你哦,
还有,我们不是因为自己吵架而哭的,
是因为别的问题,我们感情很好,
而我为什么哭,是因为看到他哭,
所以我也不知不觉哭了,
其实,他还没有要哭的时候,
我已经知道,我也自己有那种感觉,
但是,乖啦~我在呀~ =)

叫你delete掉你不要听,
有些事情,就不要回头看了,
竟然她都做到那样子了,
你又何必对她留念?
你生病的时候,留在你身边照顾你的不是她。是我。
一年和你在一起了,你的电话从来没有她打来过。
你没有钱的时候,她没有问候过你,是我为你想办法怎样解决钱的问题。
每逢新年,母亲节,她生日,你都会信息她,
而她从来没有回过你,你生日,她没有关心过,留在你身边的是我和朋友。
我曾经也有叫你回家,你也回家,我相信,你自己想家,
才回家,只是拿我叫你回家为借口,因为你爱面子,
但是回了家,又怎样,一句话都没有和你说。
你本来应该有更好的待遇,你会日本文,华文,英文,马来文。
你本来已经是一个大公司的员工,又是她没有把你的身份弄好,
现在你两头不到岸,也因为你的身份的问题还弄到我家人排斥你。

她来到KL了,也不曾想过要找你,
那....你就放手吧...
当自己是孤儿好了,振作起来,
不要留在原地掉眼泪,不值得,一点都不值得。
也不要奢望她的亲戚会帮你,他们只是会叫你回去求她而已。
而也不要怪,因为他们长大都是由她帮忙的。

我曾经不是那样的,我曾经,也很想你们好回,
但是,我真的不忍心你受到那样的对待,
我不想你在受伤害,
你和她的这段关系,你的努力,我们全部人都看到了,
你也应该够了,你的眼泪,收回去,不要留了。

我害怕你很久没有吃过家里饭菜了,
所以不懂什么叫煮饭的我,也为你学起来了,
我懂你没有什么补身体,就连什么叫泡参,我也学起来了,
因为你时常伤风,就连什么蜜糖对伤风最好的,我都懂了,
做着妈妈的位置是我,做着女朋友关心你的也是我,
为了你前途时常在想的也是我,
但是我觉得那样很幸福,我没有埋怨过,
谢谢她不照顾你,让我有这个机会来照顾你更多,
谢谢她没有和我争过你,让我拥有完整的你,
让我不用害怕以后不懂怎样和你家人相处,因为,
你完整的属于我。

遇到事情,你不要觉得你很悲惨,
那是错的,你要坚强起来,明白老天爷比谁都疼爱你,
因为老天爷给你吃很多很多的苦,所以你变的比谁都强,
因为你没有人可以给你依靠,从小到大只有你一个人,
加油!
不要怪你没有得选择,因为我有的选择,我都没有想过要放弃你,
因为我的骨气就可以当饭吃。
你看,这个月的工钱就可以多上个月的一倍了不是吗?
加油,你能的,如果别人觉得你没有出息,
就不要管他,因为他们从来只是饭来张口的一族,
我相信你一定能跑到成功的终点的,
加油,我从来没有后悔过和你一起,你也不要放弃,
一直努力好吗?
对不起,我真的也很想给你家的感觉,
可是我家人真的也站的很硬,未能带你回我家,
但是,你的努力,总有人会看见的,
加油加油 =)

Sunday, May 22, 2011

轻松记载 ..=)

baby,你好像很久没有送我礼物了哦?
哈哈哈哈~
但是我都明白~~♥♥♥
别担心 =)

因为你的钱财方面需要周转,
有时候车坏,每个月都给我一点问题的~
其他的还要存起来,完成计划~~♥♥♥

最近都很忙哦,你除了full-time工作之外,
还要兼顾part time,真的很吃力,
放工回来,还要继续做工,
有时候忙起来,可以忙到3-4点晚上。

第二天一早,就要起来做工,一做就是10个小时。
连一个星期的一天假期,我也会帮你安排到满满要做头发的人,
你也一直很耐心的做,顾客也很满意。
因为你知道,你没有家庭可以靠,很多年前就忘记了什么叫伸手拿钱,
或许,我不懂我们未来不会大富大贵,但是,一定不会饿死,
因为我看到你的努力,真的是比一般的年轻人强很多,
别人哪怕这个年龄,还在玩,但是你都很努力,
或许,别人会嘲笑你做着一份没有前途的工,
但是,你其实是可以有更好的待遇的,只是你的身份出现了一点问题~
忍耐~忍耐~
老天爷一定会看到你的一天~

虽然,花费很大,周转很大,
但是,至少我们还可以维持下去,
因为你的努力,吃饭要钱,房租要钱,供车要钱,车坏要钱,买东西也要钱。
gas要钱,streamyx要钱,水电要钱。
你都自己一个人顾自己。请你不要责怪,
因为老天爷很爱你,他给你吃了很多的苦,
他不给你依靠别人,你虽然没有我幸福,能够依靠家人,
但是没关系,你一定会有成功的一天的~加油!

所以啊,我一周年的礼物也没有,=(
但是babe说再给他3个月,一定会补回给我。

我babe应该不是一个大男人,是个小男人,
妈妈说,小男人很难听,通常是不会赚钱的才叫小男人,
但是我不觉得,
我的他,很疼我,不会很坚决做一个决定不顾人家的感受,
他会听我说..他会尝试接纳,他会改错,
但是不可以骂他,只能好好讲~

他过去是一个怎样的人,我不懂,
我只是懂,身为我,不应该去听从别人拼造出来的你,
而是自己慢慢观察,你是一个怎样的你,
妈妈说,我不分手,只是因为好胜,
但是我心里很明白,如果好胜,应该都不该拿你来好胜,
你没有钱,我和你在一起的时候你还是刚被吸血鬼吸干钱,
你有什么是可以让我赢的?

但是不变的是,你很爱我,你很疼我,你为我想多过为你想,
哪怕今天我大便在裤子,你应该都会为我搽屁股?
哈哈哈~那就真的够了~

谢谢你为我改变,为我进步,
或许你们看不到,
但是我懂,头发,舌环,耳环,态度,思想,
全部都成熟了,加油,hiro加油~
you deserve for it =) 你一定行!

Friday, May 20, 2011

=(

今天真的是很不舒服,肚子一直不听话,
痛到我半死,脚酸屁股酸~
要死~.....

一直躺在床上,早上喝milo,
看来午餐就是maggi mee的啦,
根本连一点点想出去的感觉都没有.

我申请了yes,幸好是昨天申请的,
不然真的是在家发霉!
身体不舒服,脾气更暴躁,
真的不要来惹我才好~哈哈~

闷闷的过了这天吧~


那个泼acid的人还没有被捉到,
我很害怕叻~而且最后一个case还是在wangsa maju 啊,
真的很怕咯,我出去都很小心,
没有事我都不想出去,而且在车上也没有开窗口了~
为什么他要那样?或许是被伤害过吧~

希望快快捉到他~不要伤害无辜的人了~ =)

Saturday, May 14, 2011

My result =)

Well,3roses from the love.
He gave it to me as a reward for my result although it is just a normal or can say as bad result in other's eye,but for me,and him,and of course my family,we had satisfied with it.as i am so rejoicing that they didn't give me a huge pressure,well,stress will cause someone couldn't breath,i guess. So there is no point to make me die.As their love make me stay alive ~~♥♥♥

am get B for tamadun islam ( which I don't know why and even I predict that it will failed. )
am get B- for investment
( even muikee=my little teacher also frightened as we not really go through much for it )
am get C for both finance and my resit paper-Macroeconomics.
( I tot I can get better for finance paper and it is cukup makan for Macro ~~♥♥♥ )


Well,I can still barely remembered that I had a nightmare a couple days before my result release.
I dream about I got 3 failed and I am in a big shock and get awake immediately.
Though I knew it was a dream after I woke up but still,the unstable emotional couldn't stop in a second.Cause it was too real for me to dream it as I lack of confident since I failed my Macroeconomic in the way I DONT KNOW WHY!
but it passed. as now,i can go to my second year without carrying any resit subjects. thanks god for everything.thanks muikee,thanks baby,thanks my family,my friends.As you all were my strength when I was weak .~~♥♥♥

Anyhow,I will still go hardworking for the next challenge .
Come on,I am power-full~~♥♥♥

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy MAMA'S DAY~~~♥♥♥

I rush this blog in Mother's day..
Such a proud.Yeah,it means I'm just right back from celebration.
Can I just do the talk by pictures?
Lols..As I don't think you guys read each of my word?Well,you all will just feel am crapping.
LOL! OK! FINE ~~!!!

Venue:Milwaukee
HAPPY MAMA'S DAY!!
We are still cute and young *coughs*
My idea for the post.Am good in creativity ? *blush*
Princess in the house *
* Females of the house.

I be the cameraman,that's why am not inside *tears.
Yeah! spot me spot me!! Am here~ * peace
Such a sweet couple for almost 30 years *claps
Am huge in the picture *sad.
* lovely *
* my sister , the gossip girl always.. XOXO
Okay,some of the advertisements here,may enjoy what they are promoting.
*Mr Teh Zhe Han.
Model of chili sauce ? *Ahhheeemmmmm

***** Promoter/model/ambassador of Milwaukee's restaurant =)
Orange juice lover ?
Owwww!
here come some lovely picture *shy*

Some dishes that we ordered :: ~~~♥♥♥

My choice and bro's wiffy .~~~♥♥♥Brother's choice
Sister's choice
Mama's choice
Dad's choice!
Everyone's share
This is the face while everyone enjoying the food ~~~♥♥♥







Big family here.


Second brother and his girlfriend is far away to London for their further education.
Although all of us know they are missing the time they spend here but it is no choice for it.
Just hope they can be tough always and go through all the obstacle together peacefully.
Regards.


Lastly.
HAPPY MAMA'S DAY~~~♥♥♥

Saturday, May 7, 2011

HAPPY MAMA'S DAY =)

Tomorrow is mama's day =)
I buy flower to mama and she is coming back today from China.
1week dah tak dapat tengok dia .. =)

I use up all my money left to buy flowers,
even i borrow from my love..hahahaha! gila betoi!
but mama have very less chance to receive flowers so think twice and third and many times,
i still didn't change my decision to make loan from the boyfriend . HEHE ~

It cost me not much,it is worth to change back a smile from my mama!


Red rose is represent papa's love towards mama!
Red carnation is represent all the boy's love towards mama include my brothers and my love.(although he is still not accept by my parents.=.=)
Pink carnation is represent all the girl's love towards mama include me,sister,xiao-hui and shuying =)

So i think 3 is enough ? actually I wanna get 8 flowers but out of budget..poor little pwincess,cannot afford to give queen more roses . ewww!

Lastly and still.....
HAPPY MAMA"S DAY !!